So there I was, sitting at my laptop for the 3rd night in a row trying to think of a winning idea that would be able to earn me a scholarship. Most of the time I don't have a problem writing, ideas usually come flowing to me in floods of information and I can usually arrange them into a pretty well written essay effortlessly.
Then why was I having such a difficult time choosing a topic? It's not because I didn't have ideas, but rather I had too many ideas and couldn't choose which one would be best. I wanted to write an essay portraying all my best qualities, my understanding of the world, the universe and my willingness to strive the extra mile to accomplish my goals and succeed. Easier said than done.
I considered writing about my own personal philosophical views on the world, God, the universe and significance of life, but then realized that a paper like that, no matter how well written, would never show how I am as a person or the traits and qualifications which would deem me worthy of a scholarship. I considered writing about personal experiences but quickly realized they wouldn't be able to accurately describe how I felt or thought about achievement or my own philosophical views.
So I did what most people do when they're faced with something that isn't easy to do and procrastinated. Yep, and I put it off for 3 whole days before deciding enough was enough and got down to work and decided to write exactly what was in my head at the time and just let the ideas flow.
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It seemed simple enough, and I figured as long as I still had the desire I could do whatever I put my mind to. Unfortunately, my "plan" was no where near as easy as I'd expected it to be. I faced problem after problem and trial after trial. Getting an apartment and looking for a job was a nightmare, primarily due to the economic crisis, and secondly because of the fact that I had no credit, no qualifications, no experience and most importantly – no money! (Well ok I wasn't broke and living on the streets but I was in a terrible financial situation). To make matters worse, my mom, who was practically my only hope left in the world to help me make something of myself, got fired. My dad hadn't had a job in years and even though he had tried to launch some of his own business ventures in the past, most of them were unsuccessful. Both of my parents were still abroad so I was completely isolated from any form of security, should anything happen.
Feeling increasingly pressurized, and more and more alone with each passing day, I realized how I had pretty much been in a safe bubble my whole life, and now that I was outside my protective bubble for the first time, I couldn’t rely on anyone else to take care of my essential survival needs. I decided it was time to man up and rise to meet the challenges I was faced with.
I managed to find an apartment and a roommate. I didn’t (and still don't) have a car which made my options for finding a job even more limited than they already were, but after continuous, non-stop searching for about 5 months, finally landed a part-time job. The job still wasn't enough to make ends meet at the end of each month, what with rent and bills and the like, but it was definitely a starting point. I enrolled myself in a nearby community college and began attending prerequisite classes in the hope that I would be able to transfer to a better, bigger university in the future to obtain a degree.
Six months have passed since I left my family, friends and life as I knew it behind, to travel halfway across the world to continue my quest for a higher education. I've had life changing experiences in this short amount of time, learnt so much and have become a much more open minded individual. I would really like to continue this journey of self realization and winning a scholarship would definitely assist me in staying on track with my studies, and relieve me of so many pressures associated with living and going to college.
I am the kind of person who is willing to do whatever it takes to achieve my goals. I just hope that you can help me actualize my potential by granting me this scholarship.
Yours sincerely, Zakariya Hadjali